How do I recover?
Short update on the situation- I left my husband a year ago after 5 years of being with him. It was an emotionally and mentally abusive relationship while he was abusing weed and Xanax. Everyday he would tell me that if I ever left him, he would kill himself because he loved me that much and I believed him. We had so many memories of which a lot were bad but unfortunately I truly did love him and went above and beyond to get him back on track. My finally string was when he got released to go to his parents and he went MIA on me for a week. When we finally started talking, it went downhill and treated me like trash so I left.
A year later (now) we’re still legally married and I saw his aunt to drop off all his stuff. She’s updated me that he has a new girlfriend that he’s proposed to and that he loves her so much. Him and his family are reunited but it was because I helped them all move to be with each other at the time. I even got his driver license reinstated from a different state after it getting taken away 15 years ago. But now he’s making $70/hr and bought him and his fiancée new cars and a house. When we were together, we were so broke because of his drug addiction and I was the only one working who had to pay for everything- bills & his supply.
How do I recover from this? How do I accept the fact that everything that I went through was a lie and he just held on to me as a backbone. Every day of suffering, being yelled at, being called “emotional and whiny”, being called weak, being abandoned when he wasn’t happy with me.
Bless the girl he’s with who gets the see the side of him I’ve been praying for everyday during our relationship. The one who is sober, loving and stable. For I had to deal with the angry, unconscious and unloving man who just used me to get through the fire he set.