I (20F) do not enjoy sex with my boyfriend (22M)
My boyfriend is a loving, kind person and we’ve been together happily for a year now. He is one in a million, and he treats me so perfectly that I feel horrible for writing this in the first place.
I don’t enjoy having sex with him at all. Out of respect I won’t go into too much detail, but I’m into a lot of things that he isn’t. I’ve been intimate with people in the past and enjoyed it so I know I’m capable, but I can’t get that same satisfaction with him. It’s making me question whether we’re meant to be together or not.
I have tried to communicate this to him, but his self confidence isn’t the highest due to previous unhealthy relationships, so I don’t want him to feel as though I’m trying to tear him down if I keep bringing it up every time.
The most painful part is that our lives are so intertwined at this point that breaking up with him would be so much worse than just putting up with it. I love him and I know he would never to anything wrong to me, but i always fantasise about other people or past partners I’ve had, and I feel like a monster for it.
I’m wondering what you guys think of the situation and what I could potentially do to fix my relationship. Is it something I need to fix within myself, or something that’s out of my control?