I (28m) don't know what to do about my relationship with my future wife? (28f)
I've been living with her since 2021 . I did erveythign I could. I worked so hard just to make her desires such as buying a new home in a quiet place. She didn't help. She is not helping me with nothing . Not even with small talks so I can clean my soul when I'm home. I got sick . I'm healing from 4 surgeries now. Stressed how can I pay the bills and run 2 homes at once . She is saying that I'm guilty because I think too much about those .
I feel that I'm losing it. And I'm afraid. I don't know why because I don't feel any good things now. I feel alone. So tired . She considered everyone that cared about me in this life a
bad person and made me choose between her or them . Even with family. She said she wanted more attention. When I try to give her or do things she likes. She goes to sleep or minding her own business. Our sex life is 0 . If I don't initiate nothing happens and most of the times I get rejected.
I just want someone to hear me and love me not to ignore me when I wanna talk. I'm afraid of loneliness even if I feel lonely now . I grew up alone in an empty house and build my inner me alone. How I knew better . Everyone is toxic. Everyone is wrong. Even me. She's right. Sitting in bed all day and asking me to make dinner after 10 hrs of work is right. I don't know what to do.