Trip Report - 440ug LSD
PSA- Please practice harm reduction. I’m not recommending this to anyone.
Please don't be rude in the comments. Do not ask me where I got anything from. Do not ask me any personal questions. I would gladly answer any serious questions about the trip or the compound itself. I have made this post as detailed as possible.
For the convenience of the reader, I have divided this report into the following parts: History, Background, Dosage, Set, Setting, Intention, The Trip, Duration, Things that stayed with me from the trip & a interesting question.
History - I have fare share of experience with Lucy, max I’ve ever had was 300ug(1P) at once & I like to pop 100-125 ug blots every 2-3 months…been going on for a year now. Tried LSD-25, ALD-52 & 1P-LSD. My 100ug trip generally last 5-7 hours depending whether I am smoking or not. My trips aren’t very visual generally cause I smoke a lot of weed, I get tracers n all around but no strong hallucinations. I love LSD headspace, I am most comfortable/confident when I am on acid.
Background - I was planning for a MAOi + LSD/shrooms ceremony with a medicine man I know for half a year now for a hard introspective reset. Though due to some reasons it was getting delayed & LSD has always been good time for me so I decided I would drop a bigger than usual dose
Dosage - 440ug (2*220ug blotters) as I read during my research of Lucy that 400-500 mics of acid is a thought provoking/ Life turning dose. It was!
Set - I sat with the thought of taking this big of a dose with 2 weeks, stopped microdosing (I was doing it from a month), smoked less & had a positive mindset while approaching the substance!
Setting - Indoors, with my wife (she wasn’t tripping), stargazing music playing in the background & ambient lighting.
Intention - I wanted to know does morality exist or it’s just something our mind made up?
The Trip - I had a full meal before as I knew it’s going to be a long trip then I popped 2 of these acid tabs, (which with my limited research & personal experience were 220ug each), I swallowed the tabs with a glass of water (T-5.15 PM) & went straight to take a shower then rolled a joint cause it was almost 50mins after drop but I didn’t feel any effects yet (maybe because of full stomach) went to the terrace & smoked while watching sunset & onset began in 30 mins (T +1.5 hr) at start it was like any acid trip, feeling good n confident, laughing, basically having the time of my life m while I was listening to voyage 34, by hour 2 I could feel my sense are losing sense of reality & I am stepping into heavy territory.
(T+3 hr) lyrics started to sound very distortion & I couldn’t make sense of what I was listening to so I put down the headphones & kept the background sound on as it had no lyrics just calming music at this point my mind had completely lost the sense of reality & I got asked update on my post on Reddit & I had no thought but to say nothing js real, it’s all just a perception. I was enjoying my time introspecting & thinking more about this thought.
(T + 4hr) things got very intense, very strong distorted visuals (tracers/fractals everywhere). I thought I was losing it so went to talk to my wife to calm down & in a brief moment I hallucinated as if my wife is trying to attack me while she was just coming near me as I looked very zoned out, had a thought she is trying to take over me or something to which I resisted for a second, then gave in (hugged her) & whithin seconds I was snapped out of it realising I was just tripping, I immediately sat her down & told her maybe I’ve crossed the line this time but it’s gonna be okay & I am gonna be normal in next 5-6 hours cause she was scared shitless of what just happened. sat there with myself for a while only to be overwhelmed by the fact that what I experienced could’ve been ego death so I tried to explain the same to my wife but I figured that it was just my perception of her breaking in front of me.
(T + 5 hr) I went ahead and vc a friend who knew I was tripping, he picked up, we exchanged a couple sentences & he asked do you feel okay now to which I started crying to him & tell him I am not fine but it doesn’t really matter & I hear him say something along the lines of “now you feel it ahh/you needed this to feel it” & it felt like my entire life was dependent on this question to be answered but I resisted again & hung up on him.
(T + 6-7 hr) post that mark it was just dealing & trying to make sense of these 2 situations happend, my thoughts were looping, I was trapped multiple times by a questions of existence as I got asked on my Reddit post whats the purpose of like, I was stuck in a loop talking about this to my wife & she told me that I am stuck in loop, I should just focus on living this moment & that’s when I figured it’s just a human experience your soul is eternal why to think about purpose when you can experience anything. By experience or simply living you’re destined to find a Purpose rather than keep thinking about it.
(T + 8 hr) at this point I just decided to ride it out & try to make sense of it while my mind was looping around multiple contradictory scenarios all at the same time suddenly I have thought, “we are just a spare of a larger functioning mechanism & we should focus on what brings us peace rather than caring about morality”
I could make sense of reality (basically was able to a crush & roll one up for myself) was at T+11-12 hr, smoked the J & I was back to peak visual distortion ( T+ 14 hours) but I was able to make sense of reality now which was completely missing from T+4hr mark up untill 8hr even 10hr mark. My visuals were still fairly disoriented for 19-20 hours total.
Duration - 14hr active & 4-5 hours sleep tripping up untill 9-10 AM in the morning after which I was able to sleep.
Things that stayed with me from the trip -
we should not take ourselves too seriously & should go easy on ourselves, this is just a human experience.
Weigh your pros n cons & play by your rule, things are bound to workout. (Your perception shapes your moral believes) .
After soo many centuries of human evolution, at the core the only thing that still calms our nervous system down is nature.(trees, sky, bornfire).
Whats the point of grieving in that case?
To start with it’s just a for of self expression, you grieve cause you feel bad of someone leaving “your” life, grieving is to only take the load off your chest that you’re a good person & you miss who has left this world.(it’s selfishness tbh in my believe as we should be more than happy for a soul to depart on it’s journey to next dimension).