I don’t know what to do about my “relationship” and how I feel towards it
I am female 20 years old, and I’ve never really posted on a thread like this before so I’m sorry if this is written weird or confusing in any way, I have been with my boyfriend 20M for almost 4 years now, we started dating in high school. In February I broke up with him because I just felt like I needed to be on my own and needed to be on my own to do that. We have been talking for about 2 weeks now and have hung out a few times, so he is not my boyfriend right now, but it it feels like it could be heading in that direction. The last time that we hung out I just felt kind of off about him, it’s hard to describe, but I almost felt like I’d rather be hanging out by myself and I don’t really feel passionate towards being intimate. I love him very much and I have such a deep caring for him, but I don’t know why I feel this way towards him when we’re together. While we were broken up we were no contact until recently and there have been no other people for either of us, I’m not sure if that’s important or not. I also feel scared that if I let him go no one will love me or be as good of a person for me as he is. I know it’s not fair to stick around just because I feel that way and I honestly wish I could feel differently and be fully into him when we’re together. I don’t know if there’s something wrong with me and I’m self sabotaging a really good thing and should stay with him or if I should end it because I don’t feel 100%. Any advice would be amazing, thank you so much. Also I tried posting on the relationship advice page, but it wouldn’t let me because it mentioned a breakup and said to try to post on here.