Worst it’s ever been
Before today, I’ve been two months sober and one month out of rehab, it’s been hard no doubt, but I kept going. Tonight, I relapsed, I made up my mind hours before I took the first sip. I told myself “one more night”, get a mickey, a 12 pack, go for a drive like you used to. That’s what I told myself, two hours later I’m pretty wasted in a gas station parking lot in my car, suddenly, a cop car pulls up, turns on their lights, breathalyzes me, I blow a “caution”, no DUI, but my car is suspended for 3 days, I have a fine, and my license is gone for 3 days. My parents sent me to a 30k rehab facility, and I just got caught driving drunk a month after I got back. Idek what to say. I’m 19, had my first beer last year, it’s been downhill since then. I’ve already been wrestling with the fact that I have no friends after rehab because of how I acted in addiction, and this tops it. I’m lost, my parents don’t know but they’re gonna kill me, idk.