My mental health is pretty fucked but i’m trying
I think I broke myself mentally over the years and now I’m trying to figure out how to become a normal person again.
I spent so long numbing everything that I genuinely forgot how to deal with life in a healthy way. Stress, loneliness, boredom, anxiety… all of it just became automatic escape mode. There were points where I honestly didn’t care if I woke up the next day or not. I pushed people away, isolated myself, lied to people I loved and wasted years feeling completely disconnected from who I was.
Now I’m trying to fix it before I lose everything completely.
Trying to be better for myself. For my girlfriend. For my mom. Trying to become someone they don’t have to constantly worry about anymore. Some days I still feel mentally exhausted and broken for no reason though. Like my brain forgot how to feel normal after years of chaos.
I’ve been trying anything that helps me stay grounded and not spiral backwards. Music, late night walks, gym when I can force myself to go, even plain leaf kratom and occasional natural 7oh helped me stay away from harder stuff that was genuinely ruining my life.
Don’t really know why I’m posting this. I guess I just want to know if other guys here feel like they’re rebuilding themselves from scratch too.