I'm starting to think that death might be a temporary solution to a bunch of permanent problems.
I've been alone for so long because realistically I'm antisocial and I've been in this house for so long that it's starting to try to be insane and I can't go anywhere because I'm mentally disabled and I want to go somewhere but I can't get my driver's license in my family doesn't really care about me anymore because they think I'm just some drug addict even though I've used psychedelics to help like three or four of them get off of fentanyl and meth and it feels like everything is just a joke like everything I know is a joke or something. I hope when I'm done I get a casket with madoka magica on it man that would be like really the world to me. Every time I smoke DMT I see this character from that show that she comes and talks to me. Madoka Kaname is the current manifestation of God in the culture bruh omg I got so lucky. This isolation is torture as hell man but I ain't going to do anything about it just because of that experience. If I die I don't know if I'll get to feel that way again.