u/AdagioFeeling4767

I wore a bikini for the first time yesterday and I feel guilt is eating me alive… idk if this is remnants of purity culture or feeling like i betrayed my religious parents. it still made me very happy that i reclaimed my autonomy and did something i’ve been meaning to do that took some bravery, but I felt like the guilt ruined that happiness. I was wondering how everyone deals with feelings like that, the guilt and the feelings of betrayal, whether rooted in purity culture or parents expectations.
I kinda find it hard to dissociate from those feelings since i’m not really resentful of my parents compared to the resent I have for islamic beliefs which made me feel no guilt for leaving.