u/Additional-Dingo3308

So i dont know how to start all this but. I had my first ever gay experince because i thought i might be bi but after that i will say i am not bi or gay but the experince was horrible it was an online hookup from grindr. It was a little painfull so no anal becuase it hurted and i also have a little scratch there now ofc i used a condom. But i cant stop thinking about it i feel terrible, digusted about myself, i cant shift my thoughts to something else. I am scared that these thoughts will never seetle or go away. Any advice from other people who might be trought the same?