How can I stop being attracted to men?
Hi everyone. I’m a 39 year old gay man, and I’m asking this from a purely practical standpoint because I’m just tired. I’ve always been attracted to men, but I am always considered too ugly by others. Because of this, my attraction turned into constant rejection from other men has become a source of frustration and bitterness.
I’ve already accepted that I won’t have a partner. In fact, I’ve never even had any sexual encounters, I know I never will, and I don't even have gay friends. Honestly, I don’t care anymore; I’ve come to realize that the gay world is only for attractive people. I feel absolutely nothing toward women and I live in peace with that; I just want to achieve the same thing with men: reset that counter to zero.
I know people say sexual orientation can't be changed, but I’m not looking for magic tricks or trying to hate anyone. This isn't about hating gay people or criticizing them; honestly, good for those who are lucky enough to be in a relationship or have sex with whomever they want. It’s just that, in my case, I’m tired of chasing the impossible. I just want to know if anyone has managed to decrease or neutralize their desire through logic, detachment, or mental discipline to stop suffering over something that is completely useless to me. Is it possible to achieve that neutrality? Thanks.