I've tried everything and I still love him and I miss feeling like someone was paying attention to me, I miss knowing he would always text me and I feel miserable thinking about it so much
What should I do? I feel like I'm promiscuous and it's my fault
I know many grooming victims probably say this, but I truly feel so lonely since I stopped talking to him. Since I blocked him, I've been on an emotional rollercoaster, and I always feel guilty for missing him.
Sometimes I wonder if he thinks about me or if he really believed I was pretty or important to him. I don't want to miss him anymore and I just want to move on, but I'm stuck in this.
I recently went to my appointment with the psychiatrist and finally mustered up the courage to confess about the grooming I suffered. She just looked at me seriously and told me that I should get over it and move on. I tried to explain that I was groomed again just recently, and she just kept repeating that I should let go of that memory.
I don't know if I'm exaggerating and my trauma isn't really that serious.
I've thrown myself into hobbies and doing lots of things to avoid thinking, but it's really hard. I keep thinking about what he's doing and it hurts so much. I loved him so much and now I don't have him. The worst part is that I can't ask my mom for advice because she doesn't know.
If only I hadn't been so stupid, maybe I wouldn't have been groomed and fallen in love with him
It's so annoying to see how those perverts try to message any victim who posts or comments here. It's hilarious to see how they invent any excuse to send you a message. The other day, even a supposed therapist wrote to me. I know that shouldn't surprise me, but it still impresses me that they don't give up and bother anyone.
I've recently been thinking that maybe I'll never be loved because of my past with grooming. I feel dirty, I feel alone, and I wish I'd never chatted with those men.