I fucking hate my life
I’m 15, and I’ve been stuttering since I was around 8 to 10 years old. I fucking hate my life. Every day, I try to speak normally, but the words just don’t come out of my mouth. It’s not even just stuttering, I speak extremely fast, and people make fun of me all the time and compare me to online streamers who talk fast.
I have no idea if it’s fixable. Honestly, I’ve already given up. I went to speech therapy for 2 to 3 years when I was 9 to 12, and it honestly got even worse. I don’t know what to do with my life. My parents tell me I don’t try hard enough and that I just need to speak slowly. I wish it were that easy, but they just don’t understand.
I only have one good friend, who I’ve known since 1st grade. I can’t really make new friends because I also have very bad social anxiety. As soon as someone makes fun of the way I speak, I can never really talk to them again because the anxiety becomes overwhelming.
This is a fucking nightmare. I wouldn’t even wish this upon my biggest enemy. I hope that one day it will go away, but I genuinely have lost hope.