I can’t understand my life anymore
My ex broke up with me about 2 months ago, we’re still living in the same house, for the first few weeks we still shared a bed as our daughter sleeps with us, but it was getting too painful so I asked her to move to the spare room, since then she’s bought a few new sex toys and seems to spend 90% of her time on her phone, she take it into the bath with her aswel? My mind races about what she’s doing on that phone, and with those toys. I’m no where near over her, I miss every aspect of our relationship, when we’re together she looks so cuddly and beautiful and I just want to hold her and never let go, and then when we’re apart my mind races as to why, and what else she might be doing! I know I need to get my house on the market and sell it, but I feel like doing so is also finalising the breakup and drawing a line under all the love we shared, I’ve asked her for a list of all the things that made her fall out of love with me, she said she would do it but not when I asked because it was really late, and not “the right time” but when I asked again today she said she didn’t feel comfortable about it? I already explained I won’t try to explain myself or win her back? I just need to know!! She gave me the happiest years of my life and I honestly don’t even know why I’m carrying on now aside from my daughter needing a father