u/Admirable-Button-191

Im 22 years old and currently at -6.5. I’ve had my eyesight checked every year since I was 12, and every year it keeps getting worse. I was at -4.5 when I was 18, so my myopia has progressed by 2 diopters in 4 years, the same rate of progression I had during my teenage years. The doctors keep telling me that everything is fine and that my myopia will stabilize soon. Like, wtf? That turned out to be complete bullshit and they’ve been telling me that for about five years. What am I supposed to do in this situation? It seems like my myopia isn’t going to stop anytime soon. Will I become blinde? My life is already pretty much shit because of my eyesight problem

Ever since I realized free will can’t even exist, I just completely lost any meaning in my life. I’m just nothing. “I” don’t even exist. My whole life is nothing, every decision I have made in my life never meant something. I seriously don’t see any solution except self-deleting. Even my conclusion isn’t exactly mine.

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