u/Admirable-Sock-2014

Does anyone have suggestions with how to stop the overthinking or spiraling of the lack of feelings? Specifically when you kiss or touch your partner? I feel like I’ve been in an up and down spiral for a year since being diagnosed and I don’t know how to break free.
I’m on medication and in therapy, but recently recently whenever I kiss my boyfriend I don’t feel anything. My enjoyment for things is down, I don’t feel like cuddling or being intimate. It’s terrifying but I don’t want to leave because I’ve never felt so safe and happy with anyone, even if i feel “numb” just sitting next to him.
I don’t know how to end this spiral and enjoy my relationship.