[upd] is upd really worth leaving everything/everyone behind at home?
My freshman year is ending but why do I feel like the whole year just passed? I made acquaintances, yes, but friends? I don't think so. My days are always dull. Trust me I tried to put at least some life into it. I become more open to anyone as much as my introverted ass can. Damn, I even applied to 3 orgs. I attended rallies and events on my own. But, it seems like I am a lost puppy in a big crowd, I am talking because I was required to. I felt lost or... am I just in the wrong crowd?
Meanwhile, my close friends back home are living their lives — they get to swim to beaches, hike, and go on road trips. Bruh, they will even fly for a camp at their university. I'd die to also have that fun in my fcking uni life. Isn't life supposed to be like that?
So, is the prestige of UP really worth of all the memories you should've made with your friends and families?
aaaahhh, i just want someone i can be myself with, like i am with my friends *sigh*