Frustrated with pregnancy
I was just diagnosed with gestational diabetes at 28 weeks and I feel so frustrated and upset. I wasn’t expecting to have it because I’ve been pretty healthy (although my sister did have it when she was pregnant). I have always been afraid of pregnancy and birth and have had a lot of anxiety around it and I’ve been getting more anxious as the due date is getting closer. I know it sounds dumb, but to lose the complete freedom to eat whatever I want or give into my cravings as often is very frustrating to me. I feel like I’ve given up so much for this pregnancy and this is just another thing I have to give up when I was already actively trying to eat healthier than I ever have in my life.
On top of that, I also was diagnosed with marginal cord insertion and I struggle with emetephobia on top of this anxiety. One thing that kept me going until the due date was being able to eat whatever I chose to up until labor but now I have to micromanage and overthink every meal I have, if I can have a sweet treat that day, trying to get some exercise in after my meals while I’m at work…
I know it will be worth it once he’s in my arms but I can’t help but feels so frustrated with my own body and like I keep getting these setbacks. If another thing goes wrong or I find out more bad news with this pregnancy, I’m not sure how much more I can handle.