I had posted some time back about my struggle to get over a former senior coworker (LO). I developed a crush on him and he seemed to be everything I wanted in a guy. It got worse after I caught him staring at me a lot and looking away whenever I looked back. After a few months this stopped; I assume he thought I'm uninterested and got over it. Few months back co-incidentally we both switched teams and I don't see him anymore.
Up until yesterday this was driving me nuts. Everyday all I was thinking of was how to see him again, imagining scenarios (heck even stalking his calendar). But I didn't see him at all in these last few months.
Yesterday ever so randomly I saw him in the queue behind me in the cafeteria. My heartbeat got fast and I almost felt weak in the knees. Then he moved to the counter across and stood directly in front (his back towards me). He was standing close enough for him to see me as soon as he'd turn. We're in good enough terms to say hello and have done so before- so when he did turn, I excitedly waved at him.
To my embarassment, he grabbed his phone soon as he turned to call someone and looked away. I almost felt he'd most definitely seen me in peripheral vision. Then he looked at me completely bored (almost rudely) and as if forcefully raised his hand in acknowledgement and looked away completely uninterested. Any old coworkers I see always smiles, greets, and would have a quick chat. So this was very weird and unexpected and he behaved like seeing me was the most unnecessary, every day thing. I felt so embarassed, partially angry that I just kept my head down, grabbed my coffee and left. I was hungry but left without getting any food just to avoid him.
And that's it. This finally did it. It's like the "magic" and the "fantasy" of him stopped afterwards. I am no longer finding myself stalking his socials and not giving a F in general. So funny now to think of all the fake scenarios in my head- where I thought next time if I see him, I'd ask him to join me for coffee or something. So I guess this was it.