u/Adventurous_Log3105

Hello K,

I know this is a common experience for many in this sub but I saw a post that I could’ve sworn was written by you. I know, I know…I’m just as bad as the other delusional people searching through the void I confess. But can you even blame me at this stage?

After all this time I still have no direct line of contact to you…like is that not actually insane to you? I could understand it in the past due to your strict upbringing but you’re grown now. How am I supposed to feel knowing you’d sooner let a stranger into your personal life before me…

I know you trust me more than any of those boys combined but it still hurts me. If it’s because of your religious beliefs, that’s fine but you’ve never stated that before. It would honestly make a lot more sense if that was the reason but I know that’s not the real reason…even then you know I can “play my part” when I need to…I’d go to church every weekend if it meant I could sit next to you but you never even once requested that of me…

So really what’s your reason for keeping me at a distance after all this time? Do you think I will be clingy and blow up your phone 24/7? You have to realize I’m only so clingy because I get you in these small doses now…I promise you I have more important things to do with my time than bother you all day. If you don’t believe me then go ask N…

I’ve known you for quite a while and I know your actions don’t always line up with your words sometimes. But one thing I can’t deny is that it’s draining to think about you all week with no way to reach out. I’ve never lied about the way you make me feel so understand that I really mean it when I say that I miss you…

So this is me bending to your demands. Name your price and I will pay it. I’ve accepted that you don’t have romantic feelings for me anymore, that doesn’t mean we can’t be closer though. So if you are here lurking in the sub, take this as your sign to reach out…I know you will turn avoidant if we try to address this face to face. So you can express yourself here in the safety of the void just like everyone else…I promise it will just stay between you and me.

Hope you have a good night babe, I’ll see you soon…

-The Guilty Party

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F**k I know we fought the other day but I need you right now baby girl…

Just holding you for those few seconds has turned me back into a full-on addict once more. You know I need my fix of you or I start going bananas…I’ve said it here before that I’m aware you require gentle love and I gave that to you despite how I was feeling at the time.

I did my best to show you that I’m not completely icing you out even though I was upset. But I clearly need you desperately today…I’m imagining myself getting lost in the warmth and softness of your arms…I want to take in the scent of your shampoo’d hair in the morning before it inevitably entrances me. I’ve literally told you before that your hugs are the best and I still believe that to be true.

I want to stare deep into your eyes and tell you what you mean to me while you do your best to avoid looking back. I know your limits now so I don’t push too hard but I love the way I make you squirm sometimes. I love it more when you succumb to me…

You know me well so I know you will try not to hold the other day against me but I’m asking for a truce straight up right now. I need you to hold me indefinitely…I’ll be dreaming of your glowing face in the meantime. Hope you have the sweetest dreams (don’t stay up too late doing schoolwork also!!!!)

Love,

Me

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Hello Kay,

This is actually my third attempt at writing to you in case you were wondering…I realized that everything I wrote previously was coming out hostile so I took some time before I reached out to you again.

I know you and I are “good” at the moment. That’s honestly good enough for me for right now but what happened the other day was a step back for us admittedly…we were flying so high too. I won’t place any blame as I am guilty for going to that place…but I was growing quite frustrated if you couldn’t tell?

I want to say that you claimed you were tired but I was so blinded with rage that the entire day has become a blur now…I just wish you would see that I was struggling too and come to help me without me having to beg or get out of character. You must admit you did try to push my buttons in that one particular instance even if you didn’t cop to it lol…I’m thinking of bringing you a peace offering regardless though.

That’s because I love you, my child. Even when you disappoint me, I still care about you and I proved that when you came to me after the fact. Yes, you know I was fighting back the urge to strangle you in that moment but I would never unless you asked me too (wink wink).

I just want you to understand I am still here for you always; I don’t think I have much choice in that matter anymore...I love you like family. I may not be that important to you but I’ve expressed what you mean to me a lot recently. So I will try to come back to you with my best foot forward…I just ask that I be able to rely on you the same way you know you can depend on me, that is all.

I hope you have a nice night…miss you wierdo (and yes I will still cross you up lmfao)

-You Know Who

Good morning Kay,

I had written you a letter last night but I was in a darker place when I had initially penned it so I’m attempting to write to you again…yes this letter is more about you as a whole rather than these intense feelings I carry for you. So who are you exactly for those who are unsure?

You are Kind

You are Artistic in you’re own right

You are Radiant

You are Eccentric

You are Nothing like anyone I’ve ever met before

Yes, you are in fact Kanye Krazy

Yes, you are Amazing in so many little ways that it leaves me fascinated every time we interact

Yes, you are the Rainbow at the end of my storms

Yes, you are so Exotic in all the right ways

Yes, you are Naturally caring even though life has not always been fair to you

And yes, I still do and will probably have a thing for you forever despite the fact you don’t reciprocate. Can you even blame me though, I mean you’re literally you…I hate how you’re everything to me and I still feel like you don’t understand that. So maybe this will help clear things up for you? Until next time, my “not” friend…

Sincerely,

You Know Who

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