18M 19F
am 18M, and my girlfriend is 19F. We have been dating for around 2 years now.
Earlier last year, I started working away from home, and I feel as if it has affected our relationship massively. I have no plans on changing career, so that makes me get into the train of thought that it’s going to be like this for a long time before our relationship returns to normal. I see her for about a week every 2 months.
I’ve been having strange emotions about the subject recently. It feels strange to say, but one minute I think the relationship is a burden, and I just put it in a box in my mind because I feel as if it’s holding me back. Yet the next minute I’m thinking, “Oh no, I actually do love her,” but I don’t know if that’s me being scared of change.
I feel as if I can’t give her the emotional support or fulfil her needs because I don’t share those needs. Texting her is fine, but calling/FaceTiming — I just don’t enjoy it, and I end up coming across as bland and uninterested. In the moment, I feel as if I truly do not care, but whenever she shows visible sadness about my lack of personality, it switches to caring again.
Then we will get along and have a laugh, but as soon as I hang up the phone, not even 15 minutes later, the confusion and sadness are back.
We have our problems, but we will never really have the chance to work them out because I’m never around.
Another thing is that we both have very different outlooks on life and lives in general. She cares about things that I don’t really care for, like image and wealth, whereas I’m not that bothered
I know I am only 18 but I question if this ended in marriage would I be happy? Or would I be wishing I nipped it in the but sooner idk
I want internet strangers’ opinions.