Hi everyone! i’m 21F and i’m struggling with my current relationship with 23M.
He’s wonderful, truly the best guy i’ve ever dated, but things don’t go well . At the beginning it was wonderful and i had a big crush on him, but after things got serious i started having bad thoughts about him (even things that i know are not real) and constant thoughts of breaking up even when things go well.
I also have troubles in having sex (but not just with him but with every serious relationship i’ve had).
He really really cares about me and he shows it, while i’m just there and i don’t know how to feel about him.
I’ve been in 3 serious relationship including this one and the first one broke me. I was completely in love with him and it took me almost a year to heal. I had panic attacks, depression and anxiety for over 6 months after. I fear i’m self-sabotaging because of the fear of being left again.
note: on the 2nd relationship i was never fully attached to him nor in love (even tho i realised it after i broke up with him)
what are your opinions? im looking for advice and not for someone to just say break up. thank you!