I noticed when i reach the point of 20 days the whole RETENTION thing starts to ATTACK with:
HIGH CORTISOL,Anxiety and Stress (even my Apple Watch stress function found out that my stress levels were ELEVATED)
also EXTREMELY high libido and invasive sexual thoughts
The first 18 days are manageable but matter what i do ,
once the 20 days mark arrives it’s GAME OVER no matter what..
21 days and 2 hours is the LONGEST i ve ever managed to go.
Pair all this …with the = BAD/Shitty psychology and thoughts that my mother suffers with stage 4 CANCER (cancer begins to metastasize to other organs)
and I’m living with the thoughts and fear of what is coming and what’s not…
(I tried to be as much as positive as i can)
I didn’t had any other way but to release the stress and anxiety but RELAPSING .