My first internship and I feel like a failure. I'm being transferred to a new internship soon, but until then, I feel miserable. They failed the last girl who interned with them, too.
My supervisor is not very patient and wants things done fast, which is hard for me because I am still learning. She will sigh a lot when I am taking too long for her. It is really easy to irritate her. Earlier this week, someone didn't reorder some stock and she said, "What the F-, they didn't reorder it?!" And then punched the air.
I will be told one thing and then I will do it only to be told another thing is right and what I did was wrong. Sometimes this is because people tell me conflicting things. I am the one who gets scolded for it.
Sometimes my supervisor will say things to me expecting me to know it when I don't. For instance, I had to get something out of the fridge in advance, but no one told me that was required, and I got scolded for not doing it. Another time, I had my hands full and only grabbed half of the stuff I needed for a project when moving to the back room, and when I got there she snapped at me and said "You need to bring everything to the back that you need, you know that right?"
Every day I make some sort of stupid mistake. The worst part is, most of the time the mistake is made because I'm trying to help my team but I do it wrong. Today, I thought a supervisor (not my main one) made an error with their invoice to the client, but instead their error was with the label they printed for the client's stuff, so I accidentally gave the client the wrong thing thinking I was 'helping' by fixing his mistake.
I understand it must be frustrating to train someone who has never been in this position before, and I am mad at myself for making so many mistakes and forgetting things or not double checking things like I should.
I feel really below her. I dont feel confident enough in my skills when I am around her because I fear she will get upset with me. It sucks feeling like I have to constantly prove myself.