Help with attention addiction
Hi, I'm having trouble phrasing this in a way that makes sense but, ever since I broke up with my boyfriend (about a year ago now) I have this undying thirst for praise and attention. His specifically. We've reconnected countless times on my own accord just because I crave his compliments and praise to the point that every time we stop talking it feels like withdrawl.
This makes me feel so utterly codependant on a person I don't even want to be with anymore, it's just the attention and praise that makes me run back every time.
How do I combat this? Even when I'm busy, when I have 20 different hobbies and go out with friends I still get this annoying lingering need for his attention that doesn't dissipate even after weeks of not talking. The longest I've gone not talking to him was about 2 months.
I'm desperate for any type of solution for this, it genuinely takes up so much of my day and willpower to not go back for that easy fix.