I'm no stronger to insomnia but this was new and horrifying. Like, once every 3-4 months I just take like 4 hours to fall asleep and it sucks. Had that on saturday night, thought sunday night would be a much better night, especially after a 2 hour nap at midday and no caffeine at all after 9 AM.
Nope. Had the freakiest night of no sleep in my entire life, and I don't know what to do next night.
I felt my body fall asleep like 8 or more times. Like, limbs got heavy, breathing got so slow it was scary, everything felt perfectly still... But I'm positive that I did not lose consciousness once.
I wasn't even thinking that much, even when I was trying to meditate and focus on just the blackness of my closed eyes. I'd just lie there conscious, until an itch or an ache got bad enough that I HAD to move to address it, at which point I was fully awake again.
I tried just about everything, from taking melatonin, to getting up to read for an hour, to meditation, to putting on some white noise audio, to putting earplugs in, etc, and nothing helped. It was beyond frustrating to FEEL sleep literally at my fingertips, but somehow not actually managing it.
If anyone got this weird "all-night sleep paralysis but no freaky nightmare thing", did it go away the next night, and how did you all deal with it?
I do live in a place where "funny gummies" are legal, and I'm really tempted to take one tonight to help me fall asleep, even if I know it's going to lead to lower quality sleep. Because man, double insomnia, with THIS on the second night? Genuinely awful experience would not recommend.