u/AfanRylissa_67

28F, first kid, hes 7 months old, hes not a sleeper. ive been running on 4 hours a night for half a year.

i used to meditate before he was born. ten minutes most mornings, nothing fancy. that practice is gone. when i sit down i just fall asleep. when im awake im so tired that being present feels like a fucking joke. all i want is to NOT be present, im exhausted.

at the same time hes growing so fast and i can already feel myself missing it because im just trying to get through the days.

is there a version of mindfulness that works inside survival mode. not "find ten quiet minutes" because i dont have them. something i can actually do at 3am with him in my arms