Body image rant. Moms really putting me through it rn 🫠
I’m so angry right now. My mom’s always focused on weight more than she should. I’m a petite person, but not tiny. I’m 5’2 - weighed roughly 120lbs as a teenager. I wasn’t super pudgy, but I wasn’t rail thin either. My mom would always make comments about my appearance that would make me feel insecure - “oh you look like you have no ass, you’re looking pudgy, time to diet”
Now when I was 23 I got the depo shot from my doctor. She mentioned I would gain some weight after she gave it to me. Which amounted to 60lbs weight gain over a couple years- the biggest I had ever been. This meant I also received more comments from my mom.
This past year I received PCOS diagnosis, lost a little weight before becoming pregnant. I’m now over 200 lbs and trying to embrace the changes within my body. I have a lot of stretch marks that just appeared over night. I work in the service industry so I hear comments from guests all of the time, asking when I’m gonna pop bc it looks like any day now 🙄 Asking if I’m having twins, or if I’m further along than I think (I’m 22 weeks right now)
I’m just devastated by it all and I’m trying not to be because I’m so grateful to be where I am regardless of my body image. My husband and I struggled to conceive, so it’s a huge blessing but the comments people make are getting to me.
My final straw is now. My mom has made some off hand comments about how I’m looking like my dad’s sister, who was a bigger girl. My mom does not like her at all and never says good things. She keeps saying maybe I got my PCOS from her since she’s bigger and never had kids. Now she’s saying it to others in a family group chat. I don’t know if maybe I’m over reacting, but it really is hurting my heart to read my family comparing me to another family member like this.
Another thing is my mom really isn’t a petite person either. She’s 5’6 and weighs around 180lbs. She weighed a lot more when I was younger, but lost most of it after having gastric bypass surgery. I just don’t understand why she’s focused on me so much 🫠
Thank if you’ve read my rant this far, I just need to get it off my chest. Ive been crying since I read the group chat and just feel like hiding right now.