u/AffectionateAide4755

Everytime my head is a mess, I hide; I ghost my friends and loved ones too. I know it is not healthy or maybe it is but when I'm not okay I don't like to be with people and fake my happiness. I wanna wallow through my dark emotions in solitude and then when I'm ready I reappear.

But then this is also the reason that my closeness to people always reset to zero. And that is fine, I don't like being too close to anybody anyway except those proven and trusted friends.