Still semi-frozen protein pancake for a lonely gorl
I don't know why this is the only thing I have been in the mood for lately. I usually love to cook & bake, but I've been really down. My husband, who is also my BFF, has been working the night shift for the past few months. It's been a hard adjustment, but we got into a groove and I've been managing. The other day he was told the 2nd night shift would have several people on leave, possibly permanently (aka possibly terminated), and he would be covering their shift as well, leaving him with no days off. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and I know this isn't permanent, but I just feel so defeated in the moment. My mom passed when I was a teen and I live a few hours away from the rest of my family, so I'm not near anyone I can stay with to keep me company. I feel like I'm bothering anyone I do reach out to, but I'm crippled by loneliness at the moment. I hold it together but as soon as I get in my car to drive home from work I can't help but cry thinking about the night I'm about to spend alone again.