r/depressionmeals

Waffle with blueberry jam, syrup and eggs ,

I tried working on a non for profit and they had lied about the hours that they were going to give me to work and had me come way out there in the middle of the night on the bus on a almost 2 hour bus ride just to tell me they didn't need anyone and to send me home. So I quit that job. Then I worked out a hotel where as a night auditor they wanted you to stand on your feet for a solid 8 hours and I have never worked at a Hospitality job where you're expected to stand on your feet for 8 hours solid they usually let you sit down as long as there's no guests in the lobby. And the colleagues who were training me looked afraid of the manager and It was too many red flags so I quit that job as well , so now I'm back to the drawing board. Also that hotel job told me that they were going to pay up to $20 an hour just for me to come into the interview for her to tell me that actually no one made $20 an hour and that she can only accommodate me for $17 an hour and I have 5 years of hospitality experience. There was just so many red flags. And that hotel job the longest worker that has been there far as the night shift has only been there for a month, I have never seen a hotel with so much turnover

Turns out the mustard wasn't vegan, why is there egg in the fucking mustard?

I told him I'd think about it. He's my best friend. I dont think I can say no to him, but I think it would destroy me. Also his fiancé doesn't like me because I'm gay lmfao everything about it sucks

It ain't much but it's better than monster energy and maccies.

Do we think this “chicken Caesar” wrap was worth $10? 😂

Earl grey from a bakery

the only man i've ever really loved kinda half cheated on me, he didn't actually do anything with her because hes too much of a loser but he liked her while lying through his teeth and saying he loved me

my therapist says he emotionally abused me and I can't bring myself to believe that it's anyones fault but my own for not leaving when everyone told me he was probably cheating on me and i found him saying to his friends that he hated me but he told me to my face he loved me and for some reason that was enough for me to stay

he constantly gaslit me into thinking he was a good partner and that i didn't deserve more than he was giving me and this gaslighting led me into a severe depressive spiral that almost killed me

eventually he dumped me for this one girl whos actually awesome bcs she ghosted him after she found out how he treated me, i can't really blame her at all i guess even though she technically ruined the most important relationship in my life

i thought after he dumped me my life would get better and it did for a while but now im back in the hole. i left basically all of my real friends who urged me to break up with him behind for his sake and i cant bring myself to really reach out to them because everytime i hang out with my friends i think of him and how he lied about liking me and i cant help but be scared all my friends feel the same as he did

i almost was in a rebound relationship that went really poorly because i took the lessons from my ex too far, i cant find a balance of trusting people enough while still keeping my spine. im so deeply untrusting, i cant believe anyone actually likes me no matter how much they reassure me, im gonna keep fumbling anyone whos actually good for me because the guy who cheated on me completely messed up my mind

but its not just romantic relationships that hes ruined, since he left me i've been unable to talk to really anyone, i have constant breakdowns in public, im getting better at not hurting myself but there's a real struggle there and it sucks because i never really seriously dealt with any of that before him

i'm just so tired, its been four months since he dumped me and i should've moved on from him by now, i've never had a problem moving on from anyone but him, the way he abused me and manipulated me into being desperately attached to him has just made it so hard to move on

im working on it with my therapist but it takes so long, it feels like my therapist is draining a massive swamp a spoonful at a time, it definitley helps a little and its very cathartic but its never gonna fix me :(

the only solace i have is that a lot of his friends stopped talking to him after they found out how he treated me but i feel so awful taking delight in his misery

got takeout from olive garden, i love my italian heritage

My first time using a treadmill since having metal screws and rods put into my foot. Had an osteotomy, trauma to the foot, the whole nine yards. I still have about a year and a half of recovery time. Plus my foot is extremely swollen.

I'm only going about one mile an hour on the treadmill. It's not obvious that I have a foot injury because I found clothing and footwear big enough to hide it. I don't like answering people's questions when they inevitably ask why you're in a cast.

So I'm at Planet Fitness... a gentleman who probably is about four times as big as I am slowly came walking by me. He said the speed I was going was pathetic. I should be able to go faster because someone as big as him can.

Well, I didn't have anything to say. I just worked a 10-hour shift where people treated me like garbage as a customer service representative. I just looked at the guy and the first thing that came out of my mouth was my unfiltered autistic brain speaking.

" I can smell you, please rid me of your presence. My nose is greatly offended."

That wiped the smug look off his face. I didn't even mean he smelled like body odor. He was doused in what smelled like basted Doritos and canned beef mixed together.

I've got a sense of smell stronger than most people do. I just really didn't want to smell that.

I suppose I can only mask my autism for so long before it starts rearing it's face again. What can you do?

I wish we lived in a society where it was okay for me to be the way I am. If it were socially acceptable, I would walk everywhere with a nose plug.

So, with all of that said. I hope your night is going better than mine. I may be moving slowly, but at least I don't smell like Doritos.

Beef tallow and sea salt roasted smashed mini potatoes. Need carbs. Bad day.

EDIT: They look so much better in person! Stupid flash.

(17F) almost at the end of high school and im so so lonely, i have a friend group at school who i love and i always want to hangout. whenever i ask anyone they are always busy with smth (which i understand cuz we all have jobs and study like im not mad abt that) or they never respond, the no response is what gets me and on top of that, they hang out with eachother often im just never invited. during the 2 week school holidays i tried multiple times to plan smth and only once it actually happened, but i always saw them posting hangouts together and talking abt them in school when i never was asked to join, that suckkkks. they all have licenses and ive seen them go out at night for drives, going right past my street (and we all live in the same area) theyve gone to parks and whatever i just wish theyd ask me, at the same time i know this is such a teenager problem to have but dude i just wanna hangout with friends who i feel happy and safe around. not really much point trying to make new friends cuz im abt 2 months away from graduating and im not going to uni after hs (doing an alternate pathway) so idrk how or where ill make friends in the future. what i know now is that after we graduate im likely not gonna be seeing anyone cuz they are all going to uni and are gonna be busy with their own things but they always make time for eachother just not much with me. they never msg first about anything i always have to make the plans and if i dont we can go agesss without hanging out. this isnt rlly that serious an issue but it just makes me so much sadder than it should idk anyway heres my pasta with cheese

Always knew I wanted to be an artist since a very young age. But, gotta make a living right? I gave it my all in school and at work so I can hit that sweet spot of security, stability, and leisure to pursue my craft. Now I have financial freedom, immense free time, a bunch of ideas I’ve been storing up for a long time…and crippling nerve damage in my hands that causes immense pain and numbness whenever I put lines on paper. 🍻…But I’ll find a way.

DISCLAIMER: I do NOT need anyone's advice. Yes my landlord is taking care of it. Yes I'm getting treatments in my apartment. I simply just need to vent

Being afraid of your own home is something I wouldn't wish on alot of people. Pests are mentally taxing to deal with. I also have schizophrenia so I hallucinate bugs when i see bug and feel them crawling on my skin. I'm so done with this

So many thoughts running through my brain rn I don’t even know where to start. I love biscoff though. These ones are my fav

Lost a friendship of 7 years due to bringing up the fact that I wish people did things with me, and that person took it as an argument, saying that "we argue the smallest things" even though I always just saw those as serious conversations that should be had. My friends say they were terrible for me yet all I can think of is how much I want them to crawl back and understand how much they'd hurt me even though I kept trying for us, which in turn makes me feel like a disgusting asshole. It's not like anyone will read this or care anyway. Shitty ice cream with agave syrup and sprinkles.

I'm 19. I'm abroad and I couldn't even be with him in his final weeks. My final moment with him was a hug at the airport.

And to suddenly get a call from family that he was found at home like that? For days? Imagining it hurts. Hearing my grandparents speak like that hurts. The thought of going home hurts.

My household is going to go from middle class to below the poverty line. I don't know how to manage the leftover paperwork. I don't know what bills to pay. I don't know how to pay for tuition.

I miss my dad. He who loved eating lamian and shuijiao with me. I took our recurring meals together for granted.

If anyone has any guidance for me, please help me out. I genuinely don't know what to do at this point.

So she and I were a thing like a year back, she wore me out, I reached out yesterday and basically she wants me to come over and weep like a war widow into her chest. I should mention she and I are really kinky, like, the kind of shit that we had to research the legality of beforehand, so it's hard for us both to find partners that can fulfill each other as much as we both can.

We spoke about it for a bit and she basically said that she was into me sex wise enough to want to have sex but she now has a boyfriend who says no. Now for me, I am kind of losing my mind touch starving, when we first met I would cry in her arms which she said she loved, not that she wanted to comfort or help me, she just enjoys it, it's fun for her. I tell her everything I'm going through and she shushes me to sleep, whatever.

She lives in Finland and I'm going over for a week basically to cuddle and get treated like a baby and cry into her arms, all while we both desperately wanna fuck each other but can't. I hate everything about this situation and I know I should just turn away but no one gets me like she does and it's been so long since anyone's treated me affectionately, I know she doesn't give the first fuck about me but whatever, I can pretend.

Also she said that I would be her first call if she broke up

Flights are bloody expensive as well.