u/AgreeableIdea6210

I offer nothing to society. Went into game art and animation and most of my peers are far more impressive so I'll never break into the industry plus my dream company uses AI anyway so what's the fucking point if I'm expendable?

I have no skills whatsoever, nothing ever goes right in my life and I fucking hate myself so much that it's suffocating, I always have. My friends claim to love me yet never really go out of their way to hang out with me or anything but if I were them I wouldn't want to hang out with me either. There's something to cry about every single day.

I thought this would be my year where I'd finally bid highschool adieu and have the motivation to actually work on things and get a super impressive degree but I'm just a worthless, ugly, talentless, piece of shit whose brain capacity is that of a walnut and can hence not fucking learn anything. I just wanna be held in love, to be worth something, to MEAN something. I'll never even have a first kiss and my sister manages to get into med school and score herself an amazing relationship that's already going strong (I'm happy for her, don't get me wrong, but it still makes me sad which makes me feel worse cause she deserves the best). I'm the worst thing that's ever happened to this world.

Don't take care of them and they'll rot. DO take care of them and they'll rot. People will blame your hygiene for it as well. Yeah, I've been depressed but I've had tooth trouble since the dawn of time because some of us have SHITTY GENETICS (including acid reflux! Worst of both worlds!) and have to pay a shitton of medical bills. I know a guy who consistently doesn't wash his teeth and hasn't had an issue regarding it in his life meanwhile I'll go ONE fucking night without brushing (because lord forbid I don't have the energy to even get out of bed) and bam, fucking cavity. Teeth genuinely make me want to tear my jaw out.

People will probably call me a prude or puritan but that's not true at all. I do enjoy fan service if it's done right/tastefully (some of my favourite games of all time are Bayonetta and skullgirls). My issue is that there's a PLACE and a TIME for that kind of thing. It boils down to consent. If exposing unwilling participants to your kinks is unethical what makes posting a fetish character in a place with a "No NSFW" rule any different? There's other spaces for that or at the very least tagging a post as nsfw. Not everyone is going to want to see that shit.

People will say you can't handle "normal human anatomy" too while it's usually a gross exaggeration thereof and nothing else, no nuance. No substance.

They CLAIM to love me but never really go out with me or even invite me to discord game nights or talk to me at all in college (other than a hello) unless I'm the one who initiates or even text me. I'm so exhausted. I grew up being a weird kid that other kids in my neighborhood and school purposely bullied and consistently made cry on purpose for a quick laugh. I've had some lifelong friends (like 8 years) but they're doing their own thing now, far away and it feels like my new ones don't want me. I just want to be loved. I'm so exhausted.

I have some friends that I don't feel this way about but we don't hang out much and they have better friends anyway.

Nutella and cheese. Eating like a neglected dog cause I feel like a neglected dog.