[26F] Need relationship advice because confused between 2 guys [30M] and [26M].
I [26F] am in a healthy relationship with my boyfriend, "A", [30M] for the past 1 year. Recently, I reconnected with my high school ex-boyfriend, "B", [26M]. Back in school, when B and I used to date, it was one of the happiest moments of my life. B was my best friend first, and I used to share everything with B. But, only after a few months of us dating, I faced a lot of issues with my family, and it led to misunderstanding between B and I. Eventually, we broke up. It was not an amicable or good breakup. He also started dating another girl, "G," from our school (B & G broke up last year). I stayed angry at B for years and blocked him on all platforms. However, 2 years ago, he called me from another number and asked for forgiveness, to which my answer was, "I forgive you, but you forget me and never contact me."
But now, when we reconnected on call, we spoke like no time has passed by. Both of us remember every moment we have spent together, and it was nice to know that I actually meant as much to him as much he meant to me.
The issue is that both of us are in relationships now with different people. I love my current bf "A", but that reconnection call with B has me questioning my relationship with A. A is a wonderful partner who is very patient and understanding but sometimes is emotionally distanced. He genuinely cares for me. And it shows through his actions.
In the past decade, since B and I have broken up, I have been in 3 other relationships, which have also ended.
I think I have not moved on from B, but I do not know how B feels about me now. I think I am still in love with B.
How do I understand if I love A and want to be with A or if I want to be with B?