Advice, 3rd pregnancy. Don't know what to do.
Had my first abortion in fabruary 2024. I was super scared, living in a new country, far from the person who got me pregnant. Was a really lonely process, which I was 100% sure about it and never regret it. Sometimes I think about how my life would be, and I don't feel would be a sad life, but I'm also happy with my choice.
However, after some months, I started to have de desire to have a child at some point in my life, something that I NEVER thought before getting pregnant.
Time passes to october 2025, I am now mentaly stable, happy, starting to quit my antidepressants, dating and in love with a new partner. He finds out I'm pregnant before I even realize my period was late. We were using "pull back" as contraceptive (stupid, I know). The decision was not difficult this time, I didn't cry, was easy, i felt he helped me a lot, I knew what do to, where to go and what to expect (I live in country that abortion is free and legal, and I feel blessed for that). Second abortion done.
Today, I find out I'm pregnant again. I can't believe it. We were using condom during my ovulation period. I cried a lot. I don't know what to do. I always said I wouldn't abort again and I do want to be a mother. However, I know it's not the moment. I am 29 and he is 26, I'm unemployed, he is working AND still in university. We both live in shared flats, we both party a lot. I was planning to go back to uni too next semester.
I know we are in "the age" to give birth, that's why I keep getting pregnant, we are f* fertileeeee!!!! but I also know he def does not want a baby right now, even though he says he will support me anyways and it's my decision.
Sorry for the long message, I just really don't know what to do. I don't want a baby now, but I also don't want to have a 3rd abortion in 2 years. Can someone please wake me up and tell me is a nightmare???