u/AgeHeavy

Hey guys I need some serious help me and my ex/gf had the past 2 months struggle with our relationship, she even said „she doesn’t wanna feel controlled and so weak again“. And told my best friend too when u asked about if we can fix it she said“ we will see but I don’t want whatever the fuck was it last two months“
cause my brain is going forth and back sall the time.
She broke up with me on Friday and on the next day she texts me „man I miss you but uk I and me need some time“ I told her I miss her too then we didn’t text anything else. On Sunday she texts me again what am I doing all day and what she did. On my status I where everyone can see I had „ u still mean a lot to me and I haven’t give up hope“ she replies to out and says I feel the same“ „still thinking about you“ and wearing your hoodie rn“ few hours past and she sended me a picture in it and what she did on work.
On the same day after a few hours she says „that status is cute“ I said I mean it I miss you“ she says miss u too“ and it feels like no one else understands me“ and „that we kinda become one person“ then a lil after she says „welp think about making the time we spend tght worthy n nice and then we can talk about relationship“ and later on accident she called me babe I said „no call me that“ then she right after „no i feel like we breakin the space i wanted us to have“
So yesterday I was home early at 6 am and was online and she saw it asked me if I’m not working I said no and she suggested we can play a lil bit but without call so we did. Then she showed me a lil about her family stuff and right after responded to me in my language „ I miss you so much too“
And today I was home too I saw her playing asked why she playing on main when we having matching names there even this she said „she can’t play without me there“ but she played without me on main today. Then I went there to texted her and then she said and kinda ask her „ :/ shouldn’t“ „anyways“ then we both said we miss eachother again. Then we played for idk 5-6 hours without call tho so I feel so confused what’s going on does she still want to try and still love me or is this completely over?

Hey guys,
I’m dating my girlfriend since 1,5 years she has clearly BPD. Also she drinks a lot so did she yesterday. I need to figure out if she meant it or not or if this is just a „split“
So yesterday I don’t know what went wrong. I mean I have some issues too everyone does.
Yesterday we normally pls ed our games together as usually then later that day she gets suddenly a call and then played with her friends I’m okay with that ( don’t like sudden changes tho)
She wanted me to go to sleep when I decided to not to do so cause I’m sick I can stay home.
She told me few hours later „told you go to bed“
I played my game meanwhile and I were with others
Then I saw her Ingame too so I texted her Ingame
„Why u texted me going to sleep playing with „friends“ rn xD „
She responded „oh ok“ then „I break up with you“ and „ I mean it“
So I got in panic really bad so I kinda spammed her till she blocked me On discord and only told me „ shut up“
She didn’t even block me on Instagram or didn’t remove me from her Status or anything.
So I don’t know if she meant it or what am I supposed to do I’m kinda struggling with this right now please help me guys