u/AgeOk7695

I (26F) have been in a relationship for nearly 2 years with my (29M) partner. I love him very much I find him very handsome and I’m very attracted to him (and ofc the sex is phenomenal) however when I’m in the presence of other men I can’t help but feel attraction towards them as well. In example: making a joke and getting literally high on them laughing at it. I obviously will never act on it; I love my boyfriend I would never do anything to hurt him. This relationship I’m in has healed me in so many ways but even from the beginning I cannot drop this feeling of attraction like intense attraction to other men. I have had an extremely vivid imagination since I was young I’ve always created faux scenarios in my head (not necessarily about men but just everything) and I wonder a lot when I meet another attractive man like what dating or being in a relationship with them would be like or even just wanting to get to know them more (even if they’re taken). I never think of them sexually it’s 100% more emotional. There’s no reason absolutely none for me to desire more but I still find myself desiring more. Why? My partner is faithful, trustworthy, loving, family oriented, he does a lot of house work & cooks delicious meals and just genuinely has a passion for life like no other person I’ve met. Truly an angel on earth. I didn’t even believe men like him existed prior to meeting him. I used to call him my unicorn because all you hear amongst girlfriends or even “happily” married women about their men are either complaints or horror stories. So I know I have a genuinely good man. Therefore it eats at me that I have these feelings that I could never bring up to him. What the heck is wrong with me. Or is this normal? Do men feel this way about other women as well? Hence “work wife” “work husband” culture? And if so how do you get over feeling these feelings without feeling unfaithful or just wrong ? Am I simply just the asshole? #aita tbh this just makes me sound like an unfaithful person that starts with the letter ”h” I’ve never cheated ever and will never because I know what it feels like and I wouldn’t wish that on anybody. Ive been working through insecurities ever since then. So maybe it’s that? or I have daddy issues which like maybe but idk i think im looking for another answer. Hopefully yall can share some insight & not judge me too much 😐
Or is this a simple “the grass is greener” case scenario? Is my brain wired to thinking that? I honestly am just at such a loss and I’m not sure how to stop feeling this way because I really don’t want to anymore. Thank you to anybody that reads this entirely :/