trying to finally give up self harm
I've been in child therapy and counseling a lot for mental health issues (4+ years) but it never helped. I recently turned 18 and had my first adult therapy session (starting completely fresh with a new company) and I'm so fucking upset that I never got this kind of help as a child.
one thing I brought up was my self harm addiction. I haven't been clean for much longer than 6 months in the past 2 years; my last year of high school I was cutting myself almost every week or two. I told my therapist I keep my tool of choice in my room and she mentioned the easy access to a weapon probably encourages that coping mechanism, and she's right.
I finally did what I've been wanting for almost 2 years; I gave my tool to my boyfriend. he knows about my struggles and I just cried in his arms when I told him I don't want to have my tool anymore.