u/Aggravating-Aide5046

i’ve noticed that for a very, VERY long time i’ve been having a reoccurring theme in my dreams, especially near the end right when i’m about to wake up, where i have super sexual stuff going on in my dreams. i don’t enjoy this and i wish it would stop because i have a partner and the thought of me doing that stuff, or even seeing that stuff (there’s times when im simply observing and not in on the action) disgusts me.

does anybody know why this might be happening and how i can stop it? i’m honestly just so tired of it

i’ve been meditating for a while, on and off for about a year and i’ve always struggled with this specific issue. unless i’m on some kind of mind altering drug i find it so incredibly hard to get into that state of “letting go of the world” and my mind just keeps latching onto things that keep me grounded in reality. back when i was a lot younger (before i started doing drugs) i was able to somewhat get into that state (i still can but for a few seconds at most) so i thought the simple fix to my problem was to quit drugs , so i did that. but even now i still keep latching onto reality and it’s so frustrating. i’m really starting to get irritated at this point and i just want to feel some kind of progress with my meditation but it feels like im going nowhere.

i’m looking for any help at all in this matter so literally any kind of advice or personal experiences are greatly appreciated

not planning on it but it was a thought that popped up after seeing a post on grounded mushrooms

every time i trip on any psychedelic i always set plans for things i want to do during the trip that seem fun, like drawing, listening to music, meditating and so on

but i have this issue where when i start tripping, i kinda just start doing nothing and focusing on nothing.

for example i did 3 grams of shrooms a few weeks ago and it was amazing but after the come up i went and lied down on my bed to try and focus on the visuals (they’re my second favorite part of the trip) i just got so lost in “nothingness”. i don’t know how to explain it but i focus on absolutely nothing and tbh it’s kind of a pain because i want to get as much as i can out of my trips but i just seem to get so lost, and i don’t even get lost in my mind so there’s no kind of introspection or deep thoughts. its just one long “ohh fuckkkk” moment where i have no real thoughts

does anyone else experience this and how do yall help work against it?

took 3 grams a while ago and i kept feeling my butt to see if i actually shit my pants because it felt like i had a giant lump under my butt

i’m planning on tripping next week and i love the deep thought and introspective aspect of tripping. i was wondering if there is any cool videos on philosophy / consciousness / god / religion / art
(i know it’s a lot) that are good for tripping because i find that many videos on these topics have subjects that could be touchy when tripping.

any recommendations are appreciated!!

i’ve been meditating for a while, particularly the “focus on nothing, observe your thoughts” type of meditation but i feel that’s only good for calming my nervous system.

i want to be able to gain a deep introspection and to unlock / implement my creativity. i’ve quit smoking weed to be able to be more in tune with my subconscious and creative mind and now im looking for different forms of meditation for these goals i have

any personal experiences and techniques are much appreciated!

edit: i know there isn’t a specific method that will simply make me achieve the things i want to achieve. i’m more so just looking for methods that have personally helped other people