Am I OA? Is my anger valid??
For background, I’m a PIMO, church choir member and a student in a university whose students are active in activism, strongly dislike political fmailies like Dutertes, Marcoses (which, honestly, is understandable), and the INC itself. My schoolmates don’t know that I’m INC, only a select few do, and they also know that I’m PIMO because I’m really embarrassed by how the INC interferes in politics. That’s why I don’t tell people, even some of my own cof don’t know.
We had choir rehearsal last week saturday after the evening worship service, and coincidentally we also had a make-up online class where all the students taking that course under that professor were merged into one session. Meaning, it wasn’t our actual regular schedule. I messaged one of my friends who knows I’m INC and told her I had rehearsal and that I’d leave the Zoom call because I had to go. I asked them to just tell our prof I had somewhere to be if attendance was checked and they asked where I went.
Then the next day, when I checked messenger, one of my classmates messaged me asking if I was INC. Here's the translation of the convo:
Classmate: Are you an INC member?
Me: What? How did you know?
Cm: [Name of my cof] told yesterday that you went to worship (used the word 'samba' in Tagalog), I just assumed that you are INC
Me: Why did she?
Cm: Prof asked why you're absent
Me: Ohh no huhuhu it's supposed to be a secret. What did he (our prof) say?
Cm: He doesn't give a damn about religion stuff, so you're still absent
Me; As I should but I kinda feel embarrased
It’s not like INC members are the only ones who use the word “samba” (worship service), but what if they started getting suspicious. I also have some friends in that meeting. I’m scared they might judge me as being part of a cult, a DDS, or someone who votes for corrupt politicians, even though I don’t follow INC’s endorsements at all lol. Honestly, I already want to leave, I’m just afraid I’d get kicked out of home, but that’s another issue.
Now I still haven’t talked to her since, or I don’t even know if I should bring it up. I seriously don’t know what to do huhu. Part of me wants to message the gc saying I’m not DDS or anything like that HAHAHAHA. And also, she told me that she doesn't want to say I'm outside, but then she told she's only kidding. BUT WHAT ARE HER INTENTIONSSS BRUHHH I REALLY DON’T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE AND IT'S BEEN A WEEK
Translation of Convo (last pic):
Me: Sis, tell sir [our prof] I have to go somewhere if he ask why I'm gone during attendance check, we have a rehearsal
Her: I don't want to... just kidding, I will