u/Aggravating_Heart447

may break my bones but that's nothing compared to the death tones of being alone...

You

I hate these withdrawals,

the way I claw and shake

For you

It could never be fake

I'd crawl hands and knees just to please these growing needs

For you

These aches and shakes—

Gods, how long will this take?

You

Seeing and hearing things too,

like your voice on cue,

with the lovely shadow shaped like you

You

Just to feel your sin upon my skin,

humble the instinctive crumble from your absence

You

Bleeding from my eyes, without seeing under your careful disguise

Hooked—it's bad,

and I don't want rehab

The clock—its never-ending ticks

You.

You.

You...

I just need my eternal fix.

You

~

Our love will live like a landslide

Making the noise subside

So strong it changes the world around us itself

To them it's stone but to us it's home

We'll dance to the beat of the falling fleet

Wiping away any trace of what existed before

Closing every door

The rumble like a lullaby

It's just the start, rocking us slowly in each other's arms to decend into the heart

Until then...

I'll suffer in this supposed zen

Counting each lonely breath again and again

As hopes rise and fall without the sound of that tumble and crawl

Hehe

Oooh my darling leaving isn't an option...

Ever

I won't be sorry

I'm your straightjacket

Hehe

Bound together not even the atoms can fit between us

Keep you safe and warm forever untorn

I may not be sane

But our souls so lost in each other have become the same

Oh darling don't try to run you can't be saved

I won't let the gods take you from me again

That pain...

Drove me beyond insane

Our bones will be intertwined in our dark lone grave

Don't be afraid

Hehe

You can seek asylum in my insanity

Let me hold you forever

In your darkness I will find you

If I can't pull you through, I will fall by your side until it clears or consumes us two

Alone no longer and to never be known again

I'll rip it limb from limb

I know I'm covered in sin

But I'll sit here with a defying grin

As long as I see your eyes, I'll never rise

I'll never let you tremor

So please

Let me hold you forever

Guarding you ~

I'll hover over like a slight fog

You can't see it when you're so close but covered in it, I'll make sure no one sees you like I do

If they get too close to you, they'll disappear in it too

I can't let them hurt you, nobody else will hold you so dearly, treat and touch you with such passion so sincerely

Let me guard you

Watch over you and your every move

My devotion and love I'll endlessly prove

(TW - Self Harm)

~

You're gone again

A shot to my nervous system

A blow to my bones

It's a blow I know

So...

One last cry paired with a low sigh

My soul leaving with my breath, following your trail

Making room for the numb to creep into it's place and set it's pace

Steady and null

Existence becoming so dull

So dull...

Tunnel vision starting as the rusty gears click

Sharp

So sharp...

An opening

Your name created from my vein

Once again I became sane fom the pain

Alsooo

I may need to carve my name deep into your flesh hehe

(I just need my man😭)

The slamming of doors on hinges that eventually fell off

The hot breath and spit flying to my face while my body shakes

The tingly feeling of adrenaline leaving my chest flowing into my arms

My legs giving out in the quiet aftermath 

The ringing bouncing off the corners of my brain

My throat closing tightly against my protest 

The pure disgust and disdain at just the sight of you

The anger and hatred boiling seeing you put on that mask in front of other souls 

The feeling of bile trying to settle after having to smile and pretend your touch on my shoulder is a regular occurrence, or that I don't know what pain by your hand is better than that...

I h@te you with everything I have and am. I won't be sorry or give you the blessing of being forgiven. Your name was supposed to spell protection and love while it only proved to be a scribbled curse.

I don't know if this is considered poetry but I've been writing it for a while so I have tried.

Also can be paired with the song from Jessie Murphy - The Man That Came Back 🎶

Peekaboo, I see you...

I see you where you didn't want me to

The dark space in my mind was talking again, about you… but this time it wasn’t the same.

Whispers of your eyes—how they’ve been different, shallow and distant

Murmurs of your short sentences and time, how silence stretches thin between your soulless lines

Hushed breaths about it all fitting

Puzzle pieces

Shapes that look like... deception? Lies.

The truth is slipping through, leading to your demise

You didn't count on me noticing did you? You didn't think I would remember those pieces you showed me so long ago. But oh darling I know, and they fit so well with the ones you've kept hidden

They all fit

It all clicks

My heart begins to bleed and weep

Roots torn up from the deep

By your hand

It makes me want to cut you into pieces

Display you like you've displayed yourself

Peekaboo... I see you

Daaarling…

Oh my darling, you’re so silly

Where aaare youuu?

I can feel your absence

In the quiet spaces, and dark places

Where you're supposed to be, where you're meant to be. With me

Don’t be shy, I promise I’m gentle~

Well… gentle enough

I do bite, it’s true...

But only because this little heart swells too full for you~

It needs to spill out somehow

Yours or mine, teeth or blade

After all, we are one

So don’t run

Don’t hide my darling

Come out, come out, wherever youuu aaare