Delusional? Help!
Long story short matched with a girl on an app while i was traveling back in January. We live half a country away from one another but immediately hit it off. She’s an OG lesbian with a lot of experience, and here’s little ole me, the late bloomer.
We have talked daily since January but within the last couple weeks she’s been getting more distant. Shes big into astrology and posted a story with her daily insight from an astrology app and i couldn’t help but think it was about me. It was something along the lines of her not being able to give someone what they want and that she needed to distance herself.
Since I’m a baby gay with no experience, the idea of long distance never scared me and she knew that. She has her reservations from her past. But alway came back to not being able to deny our connection and how hard it is to find someone you vibe with who is also passionate about their career, isn’t clingy or crazy(lol), is funny and just a chill person.
Friendship is clearly on the table but it’s like what are we doing here if not more? Mid 30s, we both have plenty of friends and support systems. I don’t need a long distance friend but the idea of cutting it off hurts. She’s admitted that if we meet in person any boundary she has kept thus far will be thrown out the window so clearly there’s desire and we’re very attracted to each other. Any advice?? Is this par for the course?? Emotionally/physically avoidant?? Do i be completely blunt and put it all out there even though I’ve expressed multiple times my intentions? UGH!!!