u/Aggressive_Win_8716

My dog scout F9 is a golden retriever who has been diagnosed with stage 3 melanoma. My family has seen the treatment but we think it’s best to just make sure shes comfortable and does not have to do any surgery that could hurt her for just one more year. I have just learned of the fact that we aren’t doing treatment while im working at a sleep away camp. Although i want to send time with her badly i need to stay here. I also want to but i will leave early if it gets worse. I don’t know how to deal with the anticipatory grief and the guilt of not being there for her. Any advice.