I have felt the urge to leave ever since I joined the Navy 6months ago, should I leave?
I joined the Navy for money, traveling, and to get outta my mothers house. Now that I am here I feel like I am living a life that is not mine. A life on someone else's time. Ive already got in trouble for drinking, and have been escaping just to come back. I urge to stay gone. I do not want to be apart of this so called team. I feel much more mature than the other sailors here. Im tired of the childlike mindsets and behaviors I have to deal with, I am exhausted of being told everything and continue to break their rules and regulations. I have not talked to a chaplain yet because I dont wanna rat myself out or get put in an even shittier situation. If this is how the Navy makes me feel, I feel like I should not be a sailor for them. I am so used to feeling so lost, but now I just feel like a slave. I dream of living on my own time without rules or regulations. I feel as though I can find other ways to travel and make money as a civilian.
I could see how this can be percieved as dramatic or just complaining, but any insight and advice is greatly welcomed. I would love to hear other points of views on this and opinions. I am 24 by the way.