u/Agreeable-Fly-3507

context- i am a 17yo with pmos and suspected endo. i am in one of my worst and most intense flare ups of my life. A constant 7-8 pain and i literally fainted this morning. I’m completely bedridden. Hoping for surgery in the next two months (fingers crossed)

the only problem i have is. i just cannot do anything. i have exams but i cant even study. i’m always nauseous. i can’t do any of my hobbies like baking or writing my stories, or go to the gym. i am sitting in bed with such a brain fog that i can’t read. i’m going insane. what the fuck do i do. i just watch tv and even then, i have to go back and rewatch the same scenes because brain fog is so intense. i watched three complete shows in a week.

i cry daily, not because of the pain but because of how exhausted and emotionally drained i am from handling this. i need something to focus on/distract myself with.

tl;dr SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME SOMETHING TO DISTRACT MYSELF FROM THIS PAIN

i have suspected endo and pcos. i’m prediabetic. Im 16, and ever since i got my first period at 9 ive been in incredible pain. last year i was basically bedridden all year, couldn’t take exams, couldn’t go to school, and was in the emergency frequently. i got better with Slynda, but now im in another flare up for a month and it’s getting even worse. i take tapentadol daily and this pain is dictating my life, i haven’t seen friends, i haven’t done to school for eight weeks when it’s an important year.

my endo specialist has started to bring up having a lap in late june/july. i’m so scared. not of the surgery. i’m scared of finding nothing. i don’t want to have the surgery just in case they dont find endo. we’re 90% sure i have endo, due to all my symptoms and genetic factors, but i can’t help but think of that 10% because the ultrasounds and mri all come back clear.

i also got news that im prediabetic, and i haven’t been able to eat properly for ages because of constant nausea so that’s kinda weird. it’s made me incredibly body conscious.

since i’m young and confused about my journey to a diagnosis, i have some questions:

has anyone had a lap come back clear? what did you do next?

how do you deal with the anxiety that they won’t find anything?

can you take tapentadol (immediate or sustained release i take both) twice daily and not get addicted? has anyone felt shortness of breath? google says it’s a serious side effect but my GP didn’t pay much attention to it?

does a retroverted subseptuate uterus affect anything at all? does it indicate endometriosis?

how do you do work, or school when in the midst of an extreme flare up? how do you explain it to others when they get uncomfortable around the topic? i want to destigmatise it but its hard to when people shut down when you mention a womens disease.

im in year 11 doing atar (wa) and you CANNOT believe the predicted atar i got yall. raw predicted atar is 90.10. scaled predicted is fucking 77.90. send help.

are early offers based off scaled predicted atar or raw?