My friends keep dating my Ex
Some background knowledge I have always felt like the 2nd choice everywhere I go, like I was never anybody’s 1st choice. I will call the girl in this story S
This story starts about 2 years ago. I started going out with S who I had known for years and had always really liked. Long story short we talked for a month but she ended things. Basically for this month it felt like I was somebodies 1st choice, I was her favorite person. After she dumped me I took a break from the friend group we had created but when I got back I find her flirting with 3 of my best friends ever. These guys saved me from the worst time of my life and probably saved my life. This hurt me so much I still don’t think my friends understand how much this affected our friendship, like I was really struggling to trust them. Anyways fast forward a month and I find out one of my friends has a crush on S, I gave him permission to go for it even tho I didn’t mean it (dumb move on my part ik that now.) it was on and off flirting/talking for a while but nothing ever happened. then S does the same thing with another one of the my best friends. He says he never had feelings for her and was just flirting back, I believe him but I still don’t think he understands how much this hurt to see. Now present day I found out ANOTHER one of my friends has a thing for S this time they actually are dating instead of just talking. This friend did not ask and is actually brothers with the 1st friend, they have been fighting about this for a month or so and the first friend is super mad at the one currently dating S. Basically ever since I found out about the most recent friend dating S I have been just kind of thinking over my friendship with these guys. Even though they saved me from a bad time in my life does that mean I have to put up with them constantly breaking my trust? Also does S just genuinely hate me why does she keep dating my friends? Anyways I have been holding onto this for a couple years and I never talk about this shit with anybody so I wanted to vent