So my boyfriend (26m) and I (25f) just ended our 2 and a half year relationship about a week ago. Half of it was long distance until I was finally able to move to his state to be closer. That may not seem like a long time to some, but it definitely is for me. This is my first relationship and heartbreak. I truly love(d) him and vice versa. The love is why he decided to finally let me go along with some other issues (those being that my burdens ended up becoming his + his own issues began to be too much for him to handle), but the decision was definitely a big shock to me. We are both deeply hurt by everything, but he is very adamant on taking this as a learning opportunity for both of us, to grow and learn who we are individually before we can be together. To be healthier and happier. He wants to get back together, but is very set on not doing that the moment. Even with that, he doesn’t want me to feel like us reuniting in that way will be a guarantee because “life happens and you might meet someone new and I might meet someone new down the line.” What’s hard for me is coming to terms with the fact that my whole future was swept away from me in the blink of an eye. Because he said that this breakup truly has no timeline. We both envisioned getting married and living a long life together, talked about moving in together soon, had trips and events planned out this year. And now that all seems so distant. I know I’m rambling at this point, but I guess I’m just looking for advice on how to cope, how to gain my appetite back cause i’ve barely eaten since it happened, how to get myself back out there in the world as a major introvert who doesn’t like to go places alone. Already started back with therapy to help me handle all of this, but obviously there has to be more to it. I’m leaving out some details so this won’t be extra long, and so maybe he won’t find this. But he might find it and know it’s me. And if you do find this, hey lol, this was just another way for me to come to terms with reality
Edit: Honestly it’s even hard to show up for work too. I cried the whole way there, clocked in and kept crying, sat down and kept crying, went to the bathroom to cry more. My supervisor seemed very concerned, and i don’t want to keep concerning the people around me over something like this. I didn’t know it would be impacting me this much. It hurts so much