Girlfriend refusual of any sexual favors.
I'm in a long-distance relationship. Every week, we have sex calls. Early on, when we were getting to know each other, she used to send me nudes pretty often. The last time I asked, she said, "You're my boyfriend; it's fine to ask for nudes. I just don't have enough time to take them." But it's been months now, and I haven't gotten any.
I feel like I'm the only one doing sexual favors for her. I'm honestly tired of what feels like selfishness on her part; she'll consistently leave me sexually frustrated on calls (blue-balled) after pleasuring her without me ever really getting to see her. We talked about the possibility of a blowjob yesterday, and she said, "I already told you, I can't do that until marriage.
I also feel like she used to give more efforts into making me sexually active before.
this truly takes its toll on my ability to stop watching porn because there's little to no satisfaction for me, and I get blueballed. I end up watching porn or edging anyway.
I swore last night to myself that I would never engage in anything of a sexual nature, because if I don't take what I want sexually, then there's no reason to give.
I will never masturbate nor will I ever sext or call.
I won't even ask for any favors anymore, I think I deserve to receive without ever asking because it's apparent I have put in the effort into pleasing her countless times SO WHY CAN'T I GET A FRACTION OF WHAT I GIVE?