At an Impasse - Needing Advice
Until I got with my newest partner, I never had any issues with erectile dysfunction. For reference I am 20, exercise regularly, and use Porn no more than twice a week on average. Over the course of these past relationships, i’ve never struggled to perform.
The first few times we attempted to have sex failed, on account of the fact that I couldn’t get it up. We then over the next two weeks went through a cycle of failing, then an autopsy of what went wrong, or what it could be (something i’ve read in this subreddit that you’re not supposed to do).
Anyway, in an attempt to save my relationship, I self diagnosed myself with an erectile dysfunction and began purchasing 100mg Sildenafil tablets from a regulated website. Probably not a wise move without a face to face consultation, but man, it got the job done.
At first, I thought it was just teething pains, and that once I got more settled in with my new partner, I wouldn’t need it so much. However recently (about three months of taking these pills have passed) i’ve been trying to stop taking them; they’re expensive and it feels dishonest since I haven’t told her. An unfortunate result of this is that i’m still unable to keep an erection.
Truthfully, I have no idea what the issue is. I am deeply attracted to this woman, whenever we have sex, it is mutually good sex. I can get aroused and hard before sex, say if we are flirting, though the moment it turns to getting it on, it’s like somebody flipped a switch. I’m 20, am I not meant to be in the prime of my life?
So i’m faced with an issue. It appears I have to continue purchasing Viagra which is fine i suppose, but it’s driving me mad that I don’t know what the issue is. I don’t feel as if i’m attacking the issue at its core.
Any advice or information would be greatly appreciated as things are starting to strain my relationship.