Waking up with odd emotional tension
Hi, im feeling a bit lost on this topic. Sometimes i wake up with this "Emotional tension" for lack of a better term that i can also kind of feel in my head. And as the day goes on it just keeps getting worse, like a pressure cooker that wont stop.
So its not uncommon that ill end up acting out or finding any way to blow off some pressure (Wether that be cigarettes,weed or alcohol) but in hindsight im not quite sure if it actually helps, i just cant bear the tension. And i've gotten quite alot better overall in my life, no more weed and alot less alcohol/cigarettes and alot of other things that are going much better, but today i had this happen again.
I managed to limit myself to one beer but i let the cigarettes be up to feel, tried to do some decent things like shower and eat a little but all the other small "obligations" i had for the day just all ended up ticking me off in a way i dont entirely understand.
I have had issues with both OCD and Dissociation in my life, both which have gotten much better lately but this seems to have other components to it that i dont know how to deal with, and since im starting a new job soon i feel like i cant end up letting this happen unchecked.
What worked today was that i ended up sleeping it off for the most part with a big nap, and while im happy that worked i feel like i could use some pointers and inspiration so maybe i can figure out a way to deal with it as its coming.
My current guess is that im having distressing dreams i cant remember. Who knows,
Cheers. o/