u/Alarmed-Database8963

I came out in high school as a transgender (ftm). I’m having a really hard time right now because I am also sick with an immunologic issue and I can’t tell if the testosterone is making it worse. I am all of the sudden getting uncomfortable with being perceived as male. I am confused because I remember hating my chest and feeling uncomfortable with it, but I also worry I can never be an acceptable man either. I wanted to be a man but I never feel tall enough, still look feminine, etc). I don’t know what to do. I’m post op so I worry I can never go back to the way I was.